note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,...
Yup! This post made me laugh. All of these are so very true. We love to procrastinate.
ReplyDeleteThank you! Glad I'm not the only one. ;)
DeleteThis is funny. XD I've definitely used these methods to procrastinate. One of my biggest goals for the latter half of this year has been to NOT procrastinate and my life has benefited so much from it. Procrastinating got me into a tangled mess of stress in the summer.
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Agreed, it's been one of my goals too. It definitely helps a lot. When I do procrastinate, I also turn into a tangled mess of stress. So I totally get where you're coming from. XD Thanks for stopping by!
DeleteI love that Shia LaBeouf meme haha HE'S RIGHT DAMMIT. I do ALL THE THINGS EVER to procrastinate. Like, I can't even blame anything, because if I weren't watching TV shows, I'd be reading a book, and if I weren't reading a book, I'd be writing a post, replying to comments, commenting back, editing a video, or - and this is not an exaggeration - straight out stare at the wall to avoid doing the thing I should actually be doing. So, yes, I am very familiar with this concept :D
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