note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,...
Oh dear! Well...I don't know if to say congratulations for not having to do it today or I'm sorry you weren't able to get it over with after all that work. But yay for awesome moms! Rainbow Dash, plush owl, Marvel stickers!!! :D And PIZZA. At least everything turned out well. The loot you got is the best. XD Treat yo self indeed!
ReplyDeleteHmm...Since you got a Pony with him you could always name him Owlowiscious after Twilight Sparkle's pet owl. Or Adam after Adam Young since he's an owl and Owl City and...yeah. Or Owlfred. Like Alfred. Um, what? Wow, apparently I'm in a weird mood too. o.O
Yeah, I was gonna suggest Owlowicious.
ReplyDeleteOr Bucky Barn-Owl.
ReplyDeleteIt's the worst when something like that happens! I'm glad that your mom helped make it better. Mom's are the best at those types of things:D
ReplyDeleteOh I totally feel for you. :| Getting wisdom teeth out is AWFUL, but I think getting all psyched up for it and then not happening in almost worse. >_< *hugs*
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