note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,...
I want to read this story. ^.^
ReplyDeleteI love the character photos you choose. They're always so so awesome. yay for summer stories! I love this already. :)
ReplyDeleteThis is so interesting... I really want to read this as soon as you have written it :D It'd kind of inspiring me to try my hand at writing as well!
ReplyDeleteAww, thank you so much, Alannah! That means so much to me! I'll keep you all posted! ;)
DeleteOh my goodness, that makes me so happy. You should totally try your hand at it; I can't recommend it enough. And let me know if you ever want to talk writing!
This is great, and such an interesting idea! I saw this post recommended to me on bloglovin and clicked it because of the pictures, so that drew me in, but your writing about your writing kept me reading.
ReplyDeleteI think it's so interesting that this is a story you've been working on, absently and physically, for years- I hope you keep working on it and it really takes shape and becomes what you envisage it being. x