note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,...
What wonderful choices; how precious that your father is on here :) It makes me feel all teary-eyed...but I do tend to be an emotional person ;D
ReplyDeleteAnd Corrie Ten Boom was such an amazing, inspiring person...she really is a hero :)
~Lauren :)
Wow! Mom told me that you wrote about me on your blog. Thank you, Skye, for including me. I think you know that I am not as great as you make me sound, but I still appreciate your thoughts very much! It is an honor to be your dad!
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PS: He told me He was honored by your words too.
Aww, what you said about your dad is so sweet!!
ReplyDeleteI didn't know that Owl City took pictures (I feel like I should say Adam Young instead)!