note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,...
Oh, precious Kylie, this made ME cry! Noah got his wheelchair today, and it's so bittersweet. I had really been having a bad attitude about it, but this reminded me that my hope is in Christ. Thank you, so much. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteLove,
~Half-Pint
*hugs* my little hobbit friend. Strange to think while one person can have such a great day, someone else can be struggling to remember in Christ alone their hope is found.
ReplyDeleteThis is one of my *favorite* songs and I love Owl City's version so I'm thrilled you added the widget. I may just add it to my own. :)