note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,...
Yay, I love linking up with this feature :D :D I have to admit, I haven't many friendships in my novel, but I rebelled slightly and twisted the theme to fit my problematic fave antagonist duo XD
ReplyDeleteI LOVE that you featured your antagonist duo. That was fantastic! Kudos. :D I'm so glad you enjoy Beautiful People!!
DeleteI love this meme :) I stuck with my current WIP and featured a trio of adult friends. Thanks for hosting!
ReplyDeleteThat's fantastic, Rebekah! Thanks so much for linking up!
DeleteI had a panic moment when I thought I'd waited too long and it wasn't letting me submit my link! Luckily I just wasn't looking in the right spot… :)
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