note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,...
I love this. So very much :)
ReplyDelete"It's when I'm dreaming that I feel alive. It's when I'm dreaming that I feel like... me. I've been trying to "grow up" and stuff down my imagination, but God's been showing me that it's okay to be a dreamer."
ReplyDeleteI love that. Extraordinary. =)
Thank you.
ReplyDeleteoh sky this post is beautiful and thankyou. it makes me feel happy and blessed to live and be alive. dream dream dream.
ReplyDelete::sigh:: that's beautiful luce, it's true, "reality is a lovely place.....but I wouldn't want to live there,"........
ReplyDeleteSomething about the song Vanilla Twilight comes to mind with this post.
ReplyDeleteAnd then to think. Where would this world be without the Jules Vernes, the Albert Einsteins, the Gandhis, the people who dared to dream. Martin Luther King Jr. The main man with a dream. What a miserable world this would be without dreams...