note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,...
Hmm...Writing? Just a wild guess. ;)
ReplyDeleteI have a feeling that a Wordle for my blog would produce the same top result. I've done Wordles for a few things before, and printed them and display them as art in my room--one for my novel and one for a literature paper I wrote. :)
I love how "Writing" is HUGE compared to everything else XD That certainly says a lot!
ReplyDeleteHaha that is GREAT! I think I'll have to do one, too...
ReplyDeleteI like your lowercase excuse ;) . works for me!
ReplyDeleteAs to the wordle, that's a pretty neet graphic display! I'm not surprised that writing was so prominent. Also, perhaps sunshine should be on there somewhere!