note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,...
Thank you. Truly.
ReplyDeleteAnd cheers for a villain! *cheers* I'm sorry, I'm a wee bit behind the times, what kind of name are you looking for? (Is your NaNo fantasy, contemp, historical? Sorry- I know I should already know this! :P)
Ooh!! Go to this site
ReplyDeletehttp://www.rinkworks.com/namegen/
it's really good, and if the villain is a girl you should look under "Old Latin Place Names" or something along those lines.
iGirl/Dani
Thanks for the reminder, Sky. I'm a perfectionist too, so it's hard for me to realize that it's NOT going to be perfect--ever.
ReplyDeleteBut it can be the best I can make it.
~Keaghan
Hey! Its Marissa from Feathers and Dust.
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-Your fellow blogger,
Marissa