note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,...
Whee! Only about two more hours until the fun begins!
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Elisabeth (somethingsolidoutofair.blogspot.com)
Okay so I had really no idea what this whole thing was about. But I looked it up(finally, I'm not sure why I waited so long! haha ;) and it looks like so much awesomeness! I'm excited FOR YOU my friend :)
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Yay! It's gonna be awesome! I'll be staying up, but then again, you already knew that. I always find it harder to wake up then to go to sleep. Yeah, I know, I'm a night owl. ;)
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