note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,...
Yeah! I love when inspiration just smacks you like that. :D I'm praying for you, Sweet Skylee! :)
ReplyDeletethat's really awesome. I'm working on a ...personal... true story, novella type thing right now. It's really personal -- it's -- I don't even know how to explain it. Anyway, I've been writing about 200 words a day, and I thought that was good considering school and my "business" but wow. i'm super jealous now. <3
ReplyDeletexx,
Bleah
Yay! I'm excited for you! I love when, after so long, I finally find the right words to start a story.
ReplyDelete... and I can't wait to hear more about your message in a bottle.
ReplyDeleteHere's the hug I want to give you but can't.... *HUG*
Hannah Grace: Thank you so much, Half-Pint! It means a lot to me! :) I'm praying for you too. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteBleah: Oh, that sounds so fascinating! You'll have to let me know how it goes. :) 200 words is actually amazing, considering it's hard for me to write at all at this point. Inspiration is very very fleeting. :P The fact that you're being consistent is great! Keep it up!
Fin: I know, isn't it amazing? You'll have to tell me how your writing is going... and NaNo is around the corner. :-o Eek!
The Director: Aww! Thank you so much for the hug! It means a lot. I can't wait to tell you more about it! :) *HUG*