note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,...
You are an angel ma'dear. I award you the awesome friend/all time writer award.
ReplyDeleteGood luck and have fun!
ReplyDeleteWow, it sounds like a great day to me! Especially the starting with a bagel part. **swoons**
ReplyDeleteGood luck! It sounds like a big job, but I'm sure you'll do fine!
ReplyDeleteGood luck!!! Sounds like fun!
ReplyDeleteActually, I'm looking into editing as a career. I've edited a few stories (not finished novels though) and I'm really enjoying it. I'd like to be an editor someday. Especially if my day gets to look like yours. xD
I've edited a story for my best friend/cousin, which was in SERIOUS need of editing, but I helped that,
a fanfiction story for my friend, which is being posted on Fanfiction.net with my edits,
and I edit stories for another friend of mine (once again thru fanfic.net) and they get published with my edits as well!! :)
So I'm getting experience. Haha, great post!