note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,...
YAY for Tumblr! For once Fin managed to get something right. ;)
ReplyDeleteOh sheesh. How incredibly supportive you are!
ReplyDeleteHahaha! I love the letter to Gavin. :)
ReplyDeleteAwesome title! Love the letter to Gavin Gray.
ReplyDelete~ Chy
WAIT, this doesn't mean you are going to stop posting on your REAL blogs, does it? Well, it really is the end of all things. **sobs**
ReplyDeleteJust kidding. Anyway, have fun with it!
Yay, great name choice, Sky! I love LOTR references. ;) Have fun with "The End of All Things"!
ReplyDeleteOut of curiosity - does this mean you're leaving Blogger? And if so, will you still host Beautiful People here, or on Tumblr?
PS I agree with everyone... your letter to Gavin Gray is fantastic. ;)