note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,...
Yea! I dug my flip flops out yesterday to wear to dance. I even had to search for the sunscreen today! =P We even had dinner outside--despite the fact that we all had chill bumps and ended up going inside for desert. Never mind that it only got up to 60, yippie for spring! =DDD
ReplyDeleteI'm so looking forward to your post on Avary! =)
Yay for summer and summer clothes!! =) xo.
ReplyDeleteI was wearing capri's a few days ago, I didn't get cold either. It was awesome. I can't wait till Much and I can take a walk and take our flip flops off to feel the hot, hot, HOT sidewalk on our feet. It'll be awesome. :)
ReplyDeleteAll that being said... it snowed today. *sigh*
Is that really what you wore today? Was it hard to find those items on Polyvore? It looks like a really fun way to do fashion posts without showing your face. ;)
ReplyDeleteCute outfit! I really like it. :)
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