note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,...
Hi Sky, I just started following your blog, I think it's really cool. I'll be praying for your grandfather, that must a scary situation to be in.
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i LOVE that song!!! i'm sorry about your grandpa :( of course i'll pray!
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Praying, Kylie!!
ReplyDeleteMy dear sweet friend. You comforted me when I was going through a tough time and now it's my turn. I don't have anything to say that will ease the pain, but know that Jesus is with you and loves you enough to die. He will never leave you or forsake you.
ReplyDeleteI know exactly how hard it is, but know that I'm praying for you and your family.
Love & Hugs, NW sister,
Noelle