note to self: i’ll be there for you, always
written june 6, 2021. Photo by Kristine Cinate on Unsplash I have always looked for myself in other people. I think the idea was that they would somehow hold the pieces of me that I felt were missing. That maybe, if I wrapped my identity up in theirs enough, we would somehow make a whole person. It's not healthy to live like this, but I did it anyway — burning through relationships and searching for something I couldn't quite name. It was never enough, not to be myself, but it was never enough to latch my identity to other people, either. I got close, several times — I thought I had reached the pinnacle of self discovery. I thought I had completed myself. But in the end, relying on other people to help build yourself is never a viable way to do things. It's only recently that I've started to become comfortable with the idea of being enough, as I am, on my own. Several years ago, in this same position, I would have searched for another person to attach my identity onto,...
Ha, I never noticed that before about the usernames. That is funny :)
ReplyDeleteAll of your stories look so cool :) "Reese's Pieces" looks like it must be really fun.
What's it like to cowrite? I've not done that yet, but my Mom and I are planning on cowriting a book soon.
Sadly, no, I didn't win NaNo 2010. I was on vacation with my cousin, and while I got several thousands of words in while we were on the road, I fell behind while we were in Florida (Disney World). I did make it to 50,000 about 8 days later, so I was still quite pleased. :) NaNo 2010 is "Beneath A Summer Sky", and 2009 is "Under The November Moon". I haven't mentioned a lot about them on here yet though.
~ Chy
Hey Sky,
ReplyDeleteHaha, I was playing foosball at someone's house the other day, and I named my teams soccer player dude's:P
Nickname's are the best. I make them up for everyone:D